I took a long shower hoping that the water would wash off the ugly and fat feelings I had and just pull them down the drain. My brain can be so cruel sometimes when it repeats “too fat, too ugly, too dumb.” It’s the same deal over and over and over again. These ugly thoughts that I just can’t get rid of until my mind just shuts off. It repeats “Why bother? You can’t do anything right anyway.” and as much as I try to push those thoughts away, once I’ve got them, it’s hard as hell to get rid of them.
